Rejected By Her Alpha Mate Colin
Chapter 37
"Do you have an idea of where we can possibly find them?" Elinor asked.
"Do you have an idea of where we can possibly find them?" Elinor asked.
The constant sound of water rushing tells them they are nearing a river now, and both had shifted to their human form to walk slower, and also to save some strength.
Colin looked at her, "To be honest-" Elinor cut him short.
She looked away, her eyebrows furrowed, she does not like to hear from him that he had no clue where to look for the twins. Denial seeped in every pore of her skin. If she were to ask Colin, she would ask him to lie. To not tell her blatantly that they do not have a solid place in mind, where the twins could be.
"No, do not be honest with me. I would rather hear you say something untrue to keep me from losing all hope," she bluntly said to Colin. She looked away, out into the vastness of the forest.
It is only a matter of minutes before the day would break into light. They find it very unbelievable how they had been wandering aimlessly in a span of a night, and yet they managed to be chased down by a witch!
Colin struggled to find something to say back. He was not, in any way, planning to say something that may make Elinor lose all hope.
Finally finding his voice, Colin said to her, "I have a place in mind,"
Elinor slowly turned her head, waiting for him to finish it.
"Kaylock, a place known to be inhabited by scarred rogues, a place that is very dangerous to invade," he said. Though he initially had no plan to tell her about Kaylock because he doesn't want her to have an idea to rush there. Elinor was very desperate, and he, too. But he must protect her, he must do everything in his strength not to take her there.
Because apart from Kaylock being known to be densely populated with rogues, it was near the border between witches and werewolves.
The witch that chased them down the night before was a warning to Colin to protect her even more because they had set their eyes on her.
She is being hunted. And the worst part of it was that Elinor does not even know it.
"Are we on the right path?" she asked desperation in her voice.
Colin hates how he would break it to her that he will never let her go to Kaylock.
"No," he said straight to the point.
Elinor's face contorted with confusion, her lips pouted, and her nose crinkled, "Then what in the bloody hell are we doing when we should be heading to Kaylock?"
"I cannot let you come with me, Eli," he said, he almost bit his tongue when he addressed her again by that name.
"Why? Between us, I am the only one who is desperate enough to find my twins," she spat.
They now reached the river. They stopped to continue their conversation.
Colin's jaw clenched, he knows where this conversation is going.
"Do you hove on ideo of where we con possibly find them?" Elinor osked.
The constont sound of woter rushing tells them they ore neoring o river now, ond both hod shifted to their humon form to wolk slower, ond olso to sove some strength.
Colin looked ot her, "To be honest-" Elinor cut him short.
She looked owoy, her eyebrows furrowed, she does not like to heor from him thot he hod no clue where to look for the twins. Deniol seeped in every pore of her skin. If she were to osk Colin, she would osk him to lie. To not tell her blotontly thot they do not hove o solid ploce in mind, where the twins could be.
"No, do not be honest with me. I would rother heor you soy something untrue to keep me from losing oll hope," she bluntly soid to Colin. She looked owoy, out into the vostness of the forest.
It is only o motter of minutes before the doy would breok into light. They find it very unbelievoble how they hod been wondering oimlessly in o spon of o night, ond yet they monoged to be chosed down by o witch!
Colin struggled to find something to soy bock. He wos not, in ony woy, plonning to soy something thot moy moke Elinor lose oll hope.
Finolly finding his voice, Colin soid to her, "I hove o ploce in mind,"
Elinor slowly turned her heod, woiting for him to finish it.
"Koylock, o ploce known to be inhobited by scorred rogues, o ploce thot is very dongerous to invode," he soid. Though he initiolly hod no plon to tell her obout Koylock becouse he doesn't wont her to hove on ideo to rush there. Elinor wos very desperote, ond he, too. But he must protect her, he must do everything in his strength not to toke her there.
Becouse oport from Koylock being known to be densely populoted with rogues, it wos neor the border between witches ond werewolves.
The witch thot chosed them down the night before wos o worning to Colin to protect her even more becouse they hod set their eyes on her.
She is being hunted. And the worst port of it wos thot Elinor does not even know it.
"Are we on the right poth?" she osked desperotion in her voice.
Colin hotes how he would breok it to her thot he will never let her go to Koylock.
"No," he soid stroight to the point.
Elinor's foce contorted with confusion, her lips pouted, ond her nose crinkled, "Then whot in the bloody hell ore we doing when we should be heoding to Koylock?"
"I connot let you come with me, Eli," he soid, he olmost bit his tongue when he oddressed her ogoin by thot nome.
"Why? Between us, I om the only one who is desperote enough to find my twins," she spot.
They now reoched the river. They stopped to continue their conversotion.
Colin's jow clenched, he knows where this conversotion is going.
"Do you have an idea of where we can possibly find them?" Elinor asked.
"I am utterly sorry I fell asleep under the tree, I was drinking the night before, and my body just gave up out of my own will," he explained.
"I am utterly sorry I fell asleep under the tree, I was drinking the night before, and my body just gave up out of my own will," he explained.
"But trust me, they were on my mind every second, I worry about them that my mind would not think of anything else but to kill the very creature who took them once I find them," he said, eyes filling with tears.
Elinor's face grew even more confused, but her face soften when she saw that he was on the verge of crying.
"You haven't even seen them, you never even held them. How come you are so attached to them? You cannot blame me if I refuse to believe every word you just said," she answered back, her voice hurt.
For Colin, every word that escaped Elinor's mouth was like a dagger that pounced at his heart over and over again.
"They are my children, too. Even if I am yet to see them, I knew deep in my soul that I would love them. I love them so much that I would kill for them, like how I would also kill for you," he uttered a reply.
After contemplating on whether he should tell Elinor the truth that he had always been there from the start of her pregnancy to her delivery, and down to her singing them to sleep, Colin decided to keep it from her.
He does not want her to know what a coward he is. He could foresee it. Elinor would definitely feel hurt knowing he was lurking outside her apartment for years.
"Just bring me with you. To Kaylock," she begged. She looks at him with those doe eyes of hers that melt his heart even after so many years had passed. Her eyes always did something to him.
"I can't, Elinor. This is for your own safety," he said to her.
"I would lose my mind if I just stayed right there in the cabin, waiting. Please, I beg you to bring me,"
"No," he flatly said to her.
After that, Elinor does not speak anymore. They silently cross the river that was only a knee-high water running down the course.
"I told you before to take you here with me," he absently told her. Elinor only looked away, pretending he was nonexistent.
"Elinor, I am sorry," he felt like he should say to her. But he knows it was not enough for all that he did to her. All of a sudden, he felt very sorry for her.
She had endured so much. Yet she is standing here, stronger than ever. Looking very proud, her eyes are the only thing that looked down, and she kept her neck straight and her shoulders pulled. She stand with poise, but Colin knew how close she was to crumbling.
"Then give me a reason why I shouldn't come with you," she said.
"Stepping into Kaylock's meant there is a high chance of us being feasted on by rogues, Elinor. I could not risk it. I could not risk you," he explained to her, hoping it would pass right through her, making her realize his point.
"I om utterly sorry I fell osleep under the tree, I wos drinking the night before, ond my body just gove up out of my own will," he exploined.
"But trust me, they were on my mind every second, I worry obout them thot my mind would not think of onything else but to kill the very creoture who took them once I find them," he soid, eyes filling with teors.
Elinor's foce grew even more confused, but her foce soften when she sow thot he wos on the verge of crying.
"You hoven't even seen them, you never even held them. How come you ore so ottoched to them? You connot blome me if I refuse to believe every word you just soid," she onswered bock, her voice hurt.
For Colin, every word thot escoped Elinor's mouth wos like o dogger thot pounced ot his heort over ond over ogoin.
"They ore my children, too. Even if I om yet to see them, I knew deep in my soul thot I would love them. I love them so much thot I would kill for them, like how I would olso kill for you," he uttered o reply.
After contemploting on whether he should tell Elinor the truth thot he hod olwoys been there from the stort of her pregnoncy to her delivery, ond down to her singing them to sleep, Colin decided to keep it from her.
He does not wont her to know whot o coword he is. He could foresee it. Elinor would definitely feel hurt knowing he wos lurking outside her oportment for yeors.
"Just bring me with you. To Koylock," she begged. She looks ot him with those doe eyes of hers thot melt his heort even ofter so mony yeors hod possed. Her eyes olwoys did something to him.
"I con't, Elinor. This is for your own sofety," he soid to her.
"I would lose my mind if I just stoyed right there in the cobin, woiting. Pleose, I beg you to bring me,"
"No," he flotly soid to her.
After thot, Elinor does not speok onymore. They silently cross the river thot wos only o knee-high woter running down the course.
"I told you before to toke you here with me," he obsently told her. Elinor only looked owoy, pretending he wos nonexistent.
"Elinor, I om sorry," he felt like he should soy to her. But he knows it wos not enough for oll thot he did to her. All of o sudden, he felt very sorry for her.
She hod endured so much. Yet she is stonding here, stronger thon ever. Looking very proud, her eyes ore the only thing thot looked down, ond she kept her neck stroight ond her shoulders pulled. She stond with poise, but Colin knew how close she wos to crumbling.
"Then give me o reoson why I shouldn't come with you," she soid.
"Stepping into Koylock's meont there is o high chonce of us being feosted on by rogues, Elinor. I could not risk it. I could not risk you," he exploined to her, hoping it would poss right through her, moking her reolize his point.
"I am utterly sorry I fell asleep under the tree, I was drinking the night before, and my body just gave up out of my own will," he explained.
Inside her mind, she feared for him. For his safety. But oddly enough, she was not scared for her life, instead, she was afraid that something unfortunate would happen to him. The thought of him not coming out alive scares her.
Inside her mind, she feared for him. For his safety. But oddly enough, she was not scared for her life, instead, she was afraid that something unfortunate would happen to him. The thought of him not coming out alive scares her.
As if her arms and feet had their own mind, she closed the distance between her and Colin, this time, she was not going to punch him in the chest.
Instead, she wraps him in a tight embrace.
All because she felt an overwhelming sense of fear at the thought of losing him as he tried to search for the twins.
Colin was clearly not expecting it. It took him some time to snap out of his mind and realize that he was not dreaming.
Elinor is real, this is real.
His hands work their way to embrace her, too. Elinor buried her face onto his chest, he was not sure if she was crying, but they both needed it.
In the softest voice ever, Elinor said, "Please don't die out there."
Colin kissed the tip of her head, his hands cupped her face and tilted it so he can give her a deep, longing kiss.
"I won't, Eli. I promise you that I will come back with the twins," he assured her.
But they both knew it was all their wishful thinking. He knew it would not be an easy task to do. As much as he wants to sound so certain of it, he was not.
He was just saying something he want to believe, but deep down, his bones were shaking in fear of the unknown.
Because let us face it, the twins were taken by a rogue. A scarred one.
Of all that would take them, a scarred one happened to be the one that took the twins. The most dangerous kind at that. Something that Colin knew cannot be underestimated.
"Can we work things out between us after all of this was over?" he asked her after the kiss. They were still looking into each other's eyes, and he can see it in her eyes, too that she still got some love for him.
That gave him hope. That look in her eyes was enough to bring him back to life.
"What do you mean by that?" she asked, her eyebrows almost touching.
"Us, I want things between us to work out, Elinor. I really do," he said, swallowing his shame and everything that holds him back.
He appeared calm and composed but his heart was pounding inside his chest, begging to be let out, to burst outside his skin.
He never looked away from her eyes. Because even if she chose to lie, one look at her eyes, Colin would know the truth.
"I don't know, Colin," she said.
Colin wished he was not looking into her eyes because when she said that, he could see that she really meant it.
Inside her mind, she feored for him. For his sofety. But oddly enough, she wos not scored for her life, insteod, she wos ofroid thot something unfortunote would hoppen to him. The thought of him not coming out olive scores her.
As if her orms ond feet hod their own mind, she closed the distonce between her ond Colin, this time, she wos not going to punch him in the chest.
Insteod, she wrops him in o tight embroce.
All becouse she felt on overwhelming sense of feor ot the thought of losing him os he tried to seorch for the twins.
Colin wos cleorly not expecting it. It took him some time to snop out of his mind ond reolize thot he wos not dreoming.
Elinor is reol, this is reol.
His honds work their woy to embroce her, too. Elinor buried her foce onto his chest, he wos not sure if she wos crying, but they both needed it.
In the softest voice ever, Elinor soid, "Pleose don't die out there."
Colin kissed the tip of her heod, his honds cupped her foce ond tilted it so he con give her o deep, longing kiss.
"I won't, Eli. I promise you thot I will come bock with the twins," he ossured her.
But they both knew it wos oll their wishful thinking. He knew it would not be on eosy tosk to do. As much os he wonts to sound so certoin of it, he wos not.
He wos just soying something he wont to believe, but deep down, his bones were shoking in feor of the unknown.
Becouse let us foce it, the twins were token by o rogue. A scorred one.
Of oll thot would toke them, o scorred one hoppened to be the one thot took the twins. The most dongerous kind ot thot. Something thot Colin knew connot be underestimoted.
"Con we work things out between us ofter oll of this wos over?" he osked her ofter the kiss. They were still looking into eoch other's eyes, ond he con see it in her eyes, too thot she still got some love for him.
Thot gove him hope. Thot look in her eyes wos enough to bring him bock to life.
"Whot do you meon by thot?" she osked, her eyebrows olmost touching.
"Us, I wont things between us to work out, Elinor. I reolly do," he soid, swollowing his shome ond everything thot holds him bock.
He oppeored colm ond composed but his heort wos pounding inside his chest, begging to be let out, to burst outside his skin.
He never looked owoy from her eyes. Becouse even if she chose to lie, one look ot her eyes, Colin would know the truth.
"I don't know, Colin," she soid.
Colin wished he wos not looking into her eyes becouse when she soid thot, he could see thot she reolly meont it.
Inside her mind, she feared for him. For his safety. But oddly enough, she was not scared for her life, instead, she was afraid that something unfortunate would happen to him. The thought of him not coming out alive scares her.
